What a floodgate of emotions I have been having lately. I look at my life and the people in it and I think, Am I where I should be at this time? I think all of this is coming to light because this year marks ten years that I have been out of high school and have been in what we call the "real world." A friend of mine no matter how many times we have a conversation he always seems to ask, Why are we single Kelsey? I I often ask myself the same question, but it wasn't until my cousin and I were talking over facebook chat one day last week that it really hit me. She asked was I dating and I said no and she wanted to know why. She went on to say that I have a career and educated and lets not forget that I am very pleasing to the eyes (modest much) but I wondered to myself, really what I is the problem. Then it hit me, at this point I have decided to be married to my career. Right now my career is who I wake up to in the morning and who I home to at night. Am I wrong for doing this. I also see people who are married to their careers live unhappy and unfulfilling lives. Trust me I don't want that for myself.
But there is always more to this story do I want to invest in a relationship. The same friend that insist on reminding me that I am single is the same friend who says I have closed my heart to love because of that one bad relationship so long ago. I tell myself that I am over it and honestly I believe I am but when it comes to trust with me, that's when it gets tricky. Keyisha Cole has a song on her new album and a line from that song says "Broken Hearts Develop a Fear of Flying"and I would much rather deal with my career than be disappoint with another failed relationship. One day I will be ready and maybe that day is today or maybe it could be tomorrow but in that same song there is also a line that says, "Just When I said that I was through with Love...that's when you saw my SOS! So it's definitely out there and as long as you are willing to be patient with me then who says I can't have both my career and a great LOVE!
peaceWORLD
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