InsideMindz 8: "Happy or Not"

How does one determine their happiness? Recently I have been faced with somethings or should I say people who often times give the impression that they are not happy. Personally, I haven't been so happy in a while. I continue to mention it but the past year for me was not a happy period. Of course there were moments when I was happy but for the most part it was a year of growth and learning. I want people to understand that there are people in situations that keep them unhappy everyday, but as long as you are breathing and living and have a place to live, you should be fine. I know I am, better yet, I'm better than fine, I'm great!!!!!

peaceWORLD

InsideMindz 7: "A Step in the Right Direction"

Wow I can't believe that I have been doing what it is I love to do again. I mentioned to a friend of mine the other day that my perspective on this job has changed so much since I last worked. I know we all have those days where we just don't want to get out of bed and we are drained by the fact that work some days can be long and never ending. I say that to say that this time around I see things differently. I now don't feel the need to complain even when things may be bad for me.

This past year has taught me just about everything I think it could. I have learned to be patient and I have learned even more to be humble. I appreciate my job and I appreciate the person who reached out to me even more for given me another opportunity to make my mark in the crazy world of journalism.

The next two years in Cedar Rapids, Iowa is certainly a step in the right direction and I'm even more excited now because after three weeks of searching for the perfect place to live. I have finally been approved for this condo I wanted. So let the moving begin.

peaceWORLD

InsideMindz 6: "A New Me"

Wow what a fast paced couple of weeks it has been for me. I have spent the latter part of the last month getting things in order for a new job which in turns me getting ready for a new me. The journey thus far has been good. I am still looking for a place to call home in a new city. The city meantime isn't as grand as I would like it to be saying since it's surround by corn fields but Chicago and a host of other cities are right within my reach. I couldn't be more excited.

After not working a year and a month I'm happy to be back among the working and especially happy about doing what I love to do.

So with that, there is a new me and hopefully you can see him shinning through.

peaceWORLD

InsideMindz 5: "Lonesome Worrier"

I have this really bad habit of worrying about almost any and everything. I can't for the life on me understand how I picked up what I consider this extremely bad habit. I was faced with the delimma of being upfront and honest about a situation that happened in my life and now I feel that my honest may back fire. Now for the past couple of days all I can think about is the outcome of what will happen now.

Is it possible to stop yourself from being "Wilma Worrier"? A friend of mine today reminded me so diligently that you have to walk by faith and not by sight and I'm closing my eyes and just letting go and turning it over to someone other than myself.

Tomorrow will be a better day and tomorrow will be the day of awakening.

peaceWORLD

InsideMindz 4: "Learning from the Mistakes"

I'm sure it's safe to say that we have all at sometime in our lives had maybe said or done somethings that after the fact we wish we hadn't done. This past year has truly been a eyeopening and self-awakening experience for me. As I enter this new chapter in my life I have had time to reflect on the wrongs of the past year and I can honest say that I have learned from the mistakes.

There were certainly things I should have done differently as my time was coming to an end at the station I once worked for in Boise. I'm not saying that the outcome would have been different about the company renewing my contract but maybe there could have been a different ending then the one I was given.

It's always been said that we are human and humans make mistakes, but its the road that you take in correcting those mistakes that make the difference. This past year for me as been about correcting those wrongs and making them right for my life present and future.

InsideMindz 3: "Knowing the Obvious"

I'm sure we have all heard in our lives that something could be starring us right in the face. I say this because a close friend of mine is somehow conflicted over if someone is interested in him or not. I ask him why doesn't he just make the first move and say how he feels and he replies because he's never made the first move. So of course that got me to thinking, Could someone be that vain? Or is it truly as he put it a case of the, "I don't want to be rejected."

Should we all be equipped to just simply know the obvious. If the signs are there and you get the vibe that someone is either interested in you or if even a relationship is coming to an end. If all signs point to the obvious, shouldn't we simply know the obvious?

In the case of my friend all of the signs are clearly looking him directly in the face. I have constantly told him to stop being a coward and make a move. Obviously, there is something between the two of them or they would hang out as much as they and especially at the hours that they do. We live in progressive world if you don't take control of your happiness then I say to him, WHO WILL?

InsideMindz 2: "Light at the end of the Tunnel"

Hello friends,

Today I watched the movie "Up in the Air" and I was surprised at how good of a movie it was. I think now that I totally would have supported it and gone to see it opening weekend last year. The movie really got me to thinking and that's how I decided upon the title for today's post. I know many of us have heard or even used the saying that there will be light at the end of the tunnel, but is there truly an end to the things that depress us or keep us in vulnerability?

You can say that this ties in well with yesterday's question about being happy. I received a message from one of my sisters (on twitter is she @msamonique) and she says happiness begins with you and I think that she is absolutely right. The light at the end of the tunnel because a reality because of the work that you put in and I can honestly say that I have put in a lot of work. It's not easy being in the field of work I have chosen but I know that there is light at the end of the tunnel. The goals I have set for myself will happen and I will certainly be here to see it through.

peaceWORLD

Introduction & InsideMindz 1

I have attempted to create blogs in the past and something just didn't seem to work. However, today (October 2, 2010) as I laid here on the sofa my thoughts were getting the best of me and with that I decided to take advantage of those thoughts and create a blog. I hope this time I can keep it up and not let life consume me.

I have decided to titled my blog InsideMindz, because I will literally take you inside this wonderful brain of mine. I will talk openly and honestly about the things that trouble me, the things I like and even  those things I don't.

Today I am puzzled because I'm sitting here in total silence with nothing on, no radio or TV and everything is going through my head. Everything from not working still after a year and even the dreaded love life situation. Have I gone jaded. Is it possible that I have come to the conclusion that happiness can not happen for me. Surely there has to be more to this little life of mine. I feel as though so many things could be different.

Where did I go wrong? Is it possible that you can live a life of non happiness?

peaceWORLD