behindtheLENZ 4: Long Way From Home

Hello everyone,

The past couple of days have really and truly been interesting. I'm sure those of you reading this are thinking to yourselves, "why is it so interesting?" Well, let me tell you! Are you the kind of person that often thinks to yourself when the phone rings what will the person want on the other end, because let me just tell you that I often do. It's no secret that I think of Chicago as my home, but everyone who pretty much knows me is aware that I was born in Mississippi but home has always been and will be Chicago.

I received a call from someone I knew in Mississippi way back in the day and you could consider this person family friend and let's just say I haven't heard of talk to this person in years and by years I mean double digits, not single digit at all. Anyway, first Sunday night there was a text message from an unrecognized number, I was sitting at my desk at work and I was busy updating web copy that I did not read the message right away, but a text turned into a call, so I picked up. I didn't recognize the voice on the other end but soon the person made sure I knew who it was.

The talk turned into I got your number from someone who has it and I've been trying to reach you for years and I know that you are doing well and you're by yourself, and I'm just so happy to hear your voice, and I hear you are on TV and oh CAN YOU LET ME HOLD SOMETHING? BLAH, BLAH, BLAH, SAY WHAT?  Now for those of you who may not know what that means, that slang talk or someone's way of asking can they have some MONEY? So I looked at the phone and nearly dropped it because I was so floored that this "&^%#$^*^%$#@$&**" had the nerve to scoop out the information from someone who had my number and then call to think just because I was "doing well" they could get money.

The lessons here, FIRST, if you have my number I'm sure you are aware that you NEVER give my number to ANYONE without my permission, I don't care if you think I want to talk to the person or not. TWO, home is definitely here in my heart and not a certain place, I will never forget being born in Mississippi and fighting so hard to get out of there because I saw what the surroundings did to the people I was close to, people in my own family. FINALLY, the one thing I'm still pondering over is if I should extend a lifeline to this person or not. So many people helped me last year when I was in a rough spot. I just want to pay it forward.

Until next time,

peaceWORLD

behindtheLENZ 3: Perfection

What an interesting word and today through the storm I realized that I just might be what is called a perfectionist. I reached this conclusion because in live television there's only a few things we can control and the things I can control I now know that I want it to the best work I can produce. This weekend just didn't happen the way I would have liked but I can only hope that every weekend from here on out turns out to be much better.

I was honestly all set to just really go in through this blog post but you know what that requires energy and that's something I just don't have right now. I have to be up early in the morning.

peaceWORLD

behindtheLENZ 2: Hard to Say Goodbye

As a journalist there are plenty of things that we do in order to tell the story in a compelling manner. We are often put in situations that a lot of the times many of us just fell horrible about. Take this for instance, someone dies and we cover it. I want to be the first journalist to tell you just case someone else hasn't, we are human too, and trust me we are doing simply what we have to do and nine times out of ten we don't want to knock on your door after a family member or loved one has been hurt. I for one after 7 years of doing this still find it hard to talk and ask questions of someone who just lost a loved one. I know it hard to say goodbye. I have had death in my own family and I wouldn't want some reporter knocking down my door looking for a story either, but I also understand it has to be done. It is terribly hard to say goodbye this I know for sure.

peaceWORLD

behindtheLENZ 1: New Name & New Love

Hello there everyone,

I hope this blog post finds you all in the best of spirit. You will notice something a bit different with my blog post to come. I originally titled my blog InsideMindz, but I wanted to change it for this new season of post and call it behind-the-LENZ. You can say I have a thing for the Z, lol. However, with that said, I will continue to give you an uncensored look into my world but I will incorporate more of my work and my personal life into this new title. In short you will get a view of what's behind the lens, metaphor for a lot of things since I work in front of the camera.

So since the new name part of this blog is out of the way, I guess I should touch on the new love??? A few friends of mine often say that I'm not open to relationships, that they believe I enjoy being alone. In some way I agree with them, but that's not entirely true. Maybe I have my eyes on someone, maybe the timing just isn't right, maybe we are worlds apart, maybe I'm just afraid of being hurt again. Whatever, it may be, how do you know when it's time to just lay it all on the line? Until next time friends.

peaceWORLD